the day

Today is the result released.
My result is expected, I failed.
I suppose to do remark but I don't know is the remark happened on me or not.

When I saw the result, expected is Basic Kitchen.
I thought it was real, and it came true.
I have to leave here if it is possible can't do remark.
I will still stay here, until the result review said I still can goes on..

My life here is already ended.
I don't want, this is not the ended I want.
I want a graduation, is wear a graduate cloth and the hat,
stand on the stage, my parents give me the flower.
Lecturer congrat me and my friends hug together with me.

Throw the hat together and shout everything is ended here.
But it is not come true.
I failed it. I need to remark.
I don't want everything stop here.
I believe in faith.
I believe God helps me..
So I pray.

Thanks God I failed my subject so I will try my best to study hard and graduate successfully.
I try not harder in my exam, but I try harder in my after roll exam.
No matter it is so hard, but I still remember what is going on myself.
Learn this lesson, because I don't want give up and destroy myself.
I have friend here, what's I realised.
I have a boy friend here, whom is a good guy to me, I know that.
I have some good lecturer here, because they try to help me, I noticed it.
God, Please let me pass the subject..
Let my continue my study no matter it is how harder, how evil like others,
I try not to be a person who is not believe in you, not to be a hardworking.
thank you to listening my prayer.
In Jesus name, I pray, Amen!

one day left

Early in the morning, I am worried.
Wind blow through from me, it is cold.
Look at outside from the window, the clouds grey.
My mood is just turn to grey and other colour.

I don't know what will happen, since I know maybe I will fail.
I believe this is a planed from God and I just follow.
Believe in him is better than I think about it a lot and make me into trouble.
Everything He makes, has His plan.

I love him, because we are meant to be together 11months and 22 days.
He is a good guy that I never met, and he protected me every single time.
We never argue, we can talk anything we want.
We tell everything to each others, but sometimes not,because we believe each others.
He try to tell me, I can't be sad because I still have a little possibility to pass my courses.
He console me, while I am crying.
Thanks God, You prepared him to me.

I love my friends, even though we have a lot of bad memories.
When I am facing the trouble, you guys always console and be with me.
I miss the time we hung out together. I know this will be continue until we graduate.
It seems like I graduate first, but maybe I'll not.
Maybe we will graduate together.

I miss the first time you celebrated birthday with me, 10 xiang si dou, a surprise fire flower, a card you promise we will celebrated together every year.
I miss the first time we went to Taiping trip. That's the first time we met each others and we talked to each others.
We started on the time, in the bus, we talked..
After the night, we came out for supper.
We are same class.
Miss the day we moved in the new hostel.
We cleaned the house together, we fight with each others.
that's so funny, I won't forget.

Sometimes, wrote the memories at here, the feeling is awesome.
Let's wait for together.
Fight with destiny, I believe the destiny will lost.
If I really failed, guys, must graduate successfully..
I am watching you guys.
If I pass, let's graduate together.
No more gaming in diploma,no more playing in diploma.
This is so much important and difficult in our Diploma life.


MAY GOD BLESS ME & EVERYONE I CARE.

updating blog

It is really a long time that I didn't update my blog.
Finished the three weeks holiday, my life as usual, nothing much fun but enjoyable.
The new semester is starting, the result is released on Wednesday, I feel like not too nervous but worry about the proceed to diploma or not.

Life still need to goes on, but nothing special in the life.
Thinking every single time, but worry only a single way.
I am nothing but that is not meaning that I am nobody.
I think I am nobody but that is not meaning I am nothing.
So, what do you think I am?

I see my ex-friend but I thought she is leaving here and no way to see her anymore.
She stayed and with her somebody, and yeah! Somebody whom is very Flower like another says.
So do I think he is, but no point. The guy is handsome and the girl is pretty, they must used to be together.
But hell, they are not so good as people think. It is just a action to feel like a real.

Me, myself, can be arranged by time.
Time passed, Me, myself changed.
I can't change the time because the time never stop unless it is the end of the world.
I love the way you lie, sorry I'm not. I hate the way you lie because I hate liar.
This is me, and yeah! It is. I change not because of the people that I admire or I love.
I change because I believe I can live in a better life if I change.
Change, I never mentioned it is a good changing or bad. Either one.

Weather is cold, but I still hope that is a winter.
Snow is pure white, and it looks beautiful and happy.
Snow man is only a man that people imagine, so do I imagine too.
Santa Claus is real, he live in a place where is near Finland country.
Firstly, I don't believe but since i saw the picture and she went before, I believed.
I love Christmas, but not in here, is in heaven.
Christmas is the day Jesus Christ born, is a day people shout to the lord and sing the song to praise the Son born.

I am tired and I've to stop.
I wanna sleeping so it is just a nap.
wake up in the evening, I feel like energetic.
I love to sing, so please don't stop me.
I love dance, so please just shut up and watch me dance.
I love learning, so please don't tell me that is what so bad.
I wanna say Good bye, because I really want to bye bye
so BYE BYE